Politics

I was born in a politically corrupted country. Today, nothing has changed.

Boring London

if only i had thought of the right words

i could have hold on to your heart

if only i'd thought of

the right words

i wouldn't be breaking apart all

my pictures of you

Classy

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A productive day is when I go out to class or Tesco. Thanks to cigarettes, I managed to get my lazy ass off bed and went to Tesco to get one, although it was pretty late at that time. I didn't move out of bed from 2am last night until 7pm today.

So today while I was browsing around FB, I noticed that a friend of mine just got married. So I decided to wish her congrats and talk a lil bit about it.

Well I am no fan of marriages at such early age. Marriage is a very complex thing that you have to live with until you die. That's crazy shit. And yet, many and many people nowadays are so stupid enough to get married while they're still young and have a lot to live for.

1. Commitment aren't easy. You have to be dedicated all the time for commitment.

2. You have to work hard constantly for the sake of the family.

3. You have to brush off all the bad habits you got.

4. Suddenly, you can't do this or this or that and that. You're actions and movements are limited.

5. You have to quit smoking. Or perhaps have a puff of smoke outside the house in the middle of the night while she's sleeping in bed. Then you have to use the listerine to kill off the tobacco smell.

6. You can't go back home late at night anymore meaning no more teh tarik and football.

7. You have to tell your partner all your secrets.

8. You have to tell your partner where you're going and when you'll be back and for what reasons you do this and that.

9. You don't have freedom.

420. You can't even smoke pot.

11. Meeting the in laws. Terrible.

12. Your in laws might not like you at all.

13. You have to pretend to look perfect in front of your in laws and you have to have stories to tell and questions to ask.

14. Then you're gonna have sex for almost everyday on your first few months, then you just get bored and bored and for all you know, your partner will surely catch you one day in the toilet, masturbating.

15. If she dies earlier than you, then you'll have to live your remaining lives feeling guilty of not having her reach her orgasm while she is alive.

16. Getting married means you have to remember a lot of important dates. Because you guys got married, she felt old, decided to cancel her account on Facebook, and now you simply got no idea when the fuck is her birthday.

17. Then with all the money you earn, you have to give it to someone else for some stupid shoes and bags and dresses after dresses after dresses that she won't wear at all.

18. You even have to pay for a new wardrobe just to put all her dresses and handbags and everything in, although she never uses them.

19. Then she would want diamond rings from you, because her friend has one, and if you do not get her the diamond ring, you can say goodbye to the dream of having a 52" HD TV. Oh yes, she might want 3 diamond rings instead of 1, so that she'll better her friend.

70. Then you will wonder, where the fuck is her money when all she does is ask you for money, only for you to realize that her money is spent on, yes, more shoes and bags and bags and dresses and baju kebaya or baju kurung raya up to 5 6 pasang while you only wore last years baju melayu.

71. This just means she'll need an even bigger wardrobe. You have to sign a check worth of RM10k for the new wardrobe, which it 4 years time, will break because of the burden (all of the weight of these bags and shoes and stupid stuffs) the wardrobe have to bear.

72. Then there's this PMS stuff, crazy I tell you. You'll get blamed for everything and anything that comes over her mind. You can't even ask her a single question that will make her mad at you. She's gonna whine about every little things you did and boy, you're in big trouble!

73. Sometimes she's just mad at you all the time, that you can't even differentiate whether she's on PMS or not.

74. Then try to imagine her dishes tastes like shit, so shit that even your sons and daughters agree that the school canteen serves better food than at home, but because of marriage, you and your kids will spend every single breakfast and dinner eating her shitty dishes, unless you eat a big meal before going back home( in which you can only do it like once every 2 weeks, especially not during her PMS week) .

75. World Cup is held in Malaysia. Malaysia managed to get to the finals against Brazil. You got a ticket to the Final, and Malaysia won that game 4-0, but you missed it because your wife wants you to drive her to Penang or somewhere just to get her the best nasi kandar , because she was pregnant and have all these kempunan nak makan this Nasi Kandar.

Marriage. Crazy stuff. And guess what, besides all these 75 negative possibilities about marriage, there are millions and gazillions of things far much worse than what I've just stated here, and this is what you have to live to for the next 20 30 40 50 years of your life and I can guarantee you, at one point in life after marriage, you just wish you'd die rather than having to face all this stupid outcomes in a marriage.

Then she told me on how they were supposed to get married this June, but decided to do it early.

And I asked her why. Well she told me, "Ape salahnye kahwin awal sikit?".(I can't exactly remember what she wrote, but it sounded something like that la )

Well, because of what she said, I got myself thinking, and to be very honest, why wait if you are all ready for it? She's ready. He's ready. Let's get it on. If you've found the love of your life, and you are very very sure of it, it's absolutely awesome to get married. Yeah sure, there's so many bad and terrible things will catch you along your marriage, especially if you have a wife who doesn't even know how to cook at all. But if she's the love of your life, fuck that. I'm sure there's a way to work things out. Just get married. Do whatever you wanna do, whenever you want it. Just do it if you believe that's the right thing to do. If you're not ready for kids, don't have kids, use protection. Fuck all these possibilities. Fuck the wife's cookings, fuck with the money and stuffs and pot and everything. You're up for it anyway. You're ready as hell. You're well prepared. Or maybe you can wait a little bit until you get your new 18" rims for your car, before you can commit your money towards your crazy pathetic psycho shopaholic future wife of yours. It won't take that long to get these 18" rims. Plus, you're still gonna marry her sooner or later and give her your well earned money one day. That's why people get married. For all this. If you can expect this and still get married, you're the man.

So when you marry someone, you'll marry her problems as well. And if you really love someone, you'll find a way somehow.

Hopefully things will work as easy as that for me one day. I wish I can just say, "Hey, let us get married this weekend! or next weekend! or whenever you're free!". But I don't know if I would. Because life is never the same between everyone. Some requires extra effort, some goes along automatically. Some have met their love of their life. Some don't. Some just missed it. And some just know that their love of their life is gone, because they screwed it already. And everyone will know in which category they are , when they're old and lonely to realize everything.

To Dalila Syazana Zainuddin, congratulations on your wedding. Go have kids! Moga kekal sampai anak cucu. Amin.

Rokok sini mahal sangat. Adey

Sejuk sial London

And today, I just realized one thing.

I am much more of an honest friend than an honest lover.

I miss my friends back at home.

London

London's been good. The weather's very cold, but after a few weeks, i think i can take it. Haven't been around London that much. Have to be careful with the pounds. Social life's fine. Met new friends. Disappointed though with the college, but surely i'll get used to it. Class starts this Thursday. Hopefully it'll be good. The room is very small, considering that I have to share it with a friend of mine. Will get a double decker bed replacing this current one in a few days. Still not really missing Malaysia. So that's a good thing as well. Will have friends from Dublin coming over this week. Awesome. I think I just fit in well here in London. Will try to find a job to help ease my financial difficulties. Still learning to cook. Did chicken curry, nasi goreng sardin, and of course, sardines. Can't wait to try making other new dishes. For the rest of the days, it's just omelettes, corn flakes, and those instant noodles.

The best part of all is that, I'm gonna continue my How I Met Your Mother's marathon. The best ever comedy series since Friends.

So that's just about it from London. Nice place. Would be better with money in the pocket. God I need money.